IF ONLY

"You are still the one"

the more lovers you have

even though their thought for you is pure

pure as the white Dove

there is still the wound that can't be cure

because the one you love

Can never be yours

it hurts inside, so much just as much as torn

if only God can hear your heart from up above

That he can make things better

when there's no pain, someone to cater

The pain lingers because he is not beside you

But it is aggravated by the fact that she hurt him too

If only your mine

there will be no waste of time

I'll hug you from dawn to set

i know that from the very day we've met

in through your eyes

where my heart is lying  

i can feel that there are no lies

you love her as much as much I love you

And that miffed me the most

the one liter of tears i have given to you???

all the pain??? i should be mad.... but hey, i just love you that much that whatever the feelings of yours...i'll accept it just to see you happy with the one you love... after she made you a fool, i want to run to you to offer my comfort but the fact that I know I will only the words that you love her that rendered me to just stay out of the way... Before I let you go, out of my mind, out my heart, and out of my existence i just want to say I love you yesterday, now at present, and I know even tomorrow....

 Love for most of us is a feeling in ecstasy but for me it's the burning pain inside of me. I aint gonna tell you that you are my love forever and i will love you till the end. i won't state idiotic statements such that you are my life and my existence duh! i want to vomit because you know what? i did. I did! and I swear to God it will not happen again.

           The moments and memories that I had with you, I cursed them all! I looked stupid for loving you that much! you are not worthy of such! I hate my eyes because i could still see your face , those frothy lips,your ideal nose,and your glitzy eyes staring at me so preciously. I can't believe that I fall for that so easily. I loathe the way you talk to me and your inimitable voice still hunting me. Why is it, that it is like I'm the only one hurt? Why can't I see you wanting me. I could still hear my heart pumping as I remember you, and I don't like it but I can't stop it. 

This heart is a jail that only you could open it up. But how could it be? you are not even with me anymore and I know you will never be. But God! please tell me how to forget someone like you?  Coz i already had a very bad situation here. How can I tell to my heart to stop shouting your name because I'm previously burning myself to death.

I want to forget you

till that time i would be ok too

without you it's hell

but something ring the bell

whenever you are

i could not move the car

for you to be near me

and to love me 

the way you stare

i really can not bear

that you will never be mine

for you already cut the line

Hope you'll be happy now

coz i'll stop fantasizing any about you and me

but before everything 

i want to make my last cry the last drop of my tears will be accepting all facts that meant my freedom from this jail,from this world I myself made for us...I love you A*****. Goodbye:(( 

Love sometimes unexplainable

Love defines as…..

1.       The what we called “crush”

   -a.k.a. infatuation

   -the sensation is frequently the big reason why this is such occurring

   -his/her smell lingers on your nostrils, his/her smile is evidently irresistible for you, and the sound of his/her voice for you is harmonious  that whenever, wherever,  and however you just want to smell, see, and hear his/her scheme.

     -but this commonly does not last for a long time after you found someone better, with just a snap, feeling is goneJ

2.       puppy love?

-          It is where he/she can’t stare at you deeply; your hurt pumps just like it want to goes out your chest to be mutually connected to the heart of the one you love…

-          It is when someone felt that his/her feeling is the most important thing because this feeling worth everything

-          This feeling is associated also by what our senses tell us but others told others that,”it is one of the feeling consider to be unordinary”, I don’t know what it mean but it makes sense at all…

-          A very wealth-giving and very sacrificing scenario is usually observed

-          Most of the people experienced preceded by much greater form of love

3.       Great Love

-          It occur most likely to lovers who are banned to be together

-          The love is considered to be great if and only if:

Ø  You sacrificed a lot

Ø  You disobeyed rules such as not to see him/her anymore, not to talk, not to go out, yada yada yada….

Ø  You are willing to give up and swallow your untainted pride for someone you don’t know if worth it but you still wanna do it because your focus would be your heart and your heart only

-          Hence, several of persons that gave effortful devotion to this kind of love ends in not so good culmination. The finale is that they just got hurt.

-          The recovery time would be more than years for some.

4.        TRUE LOVE

-          This would be define as sincere, devine, consecration, and dedication to a person that you don’t see as something but someone that not just passing by but living within your life and you consider as reason for your existence. But to distinguish it from the other it can be controlled and this love could last as long as they are breathing and as long as the person they truly love never leave them in this selfish and crazy world.

-          This love is the ideation of all person

This kinds of love just give you the possibilities and the wonders of loving and caring, but it doesn’t mean that if you are not experiencing it just like others you won’t be happy. No,no,no. Everybody earns happiness.

It may be hard to find the one you will love and will love you back but just wait because loving is not the same with rushing. It is totally of different meaning. If you wait you have plenty time to fix yourself be ready for his homecoming because maybe the right person for us is just somewhere out there but just in the wrong human. We just have to let destiny, serendipity, and fate do their work. God knows what He is doing. If you have been wounded on your past relationship look on the bright side because everybody have their somebody that they really deserves.

" My shattered trust"

Friends are supposed to be constantly there to be with you even if others not, and even if others can't.

They are thought to be your prodigious barricade to any blizzard that may occur in your life.

But it is just like finding the glitzy teardrop in the gloomy wide ocean water...

Rapport is the paramount of whichever liaison that we had,have,and will be having. It is the fundamental weapon of an indestructible and undying link. Trust must be cherish, tighten, and augment by all means.

Paradoxically, even if one's trust is amplified but the person being given by this hue of trust is unworthy it can only be squandered. Such misfortune is endemic that even an innocent man can be affected .

To the deceiving words when they are in front of you, F***  that! who deserves it! Because you know afterwards they put the shit on top of your head without you knowing...

Who cares if you don't have a friend, it is better than to smile and be pathetically hippocratic. 

" Why do I still love you"

There are times I look at my mirror trying to figure out if why in the world,,,why is it you? why can't it be so easy to love somebody who will love you back... when there is no pain nor hard times...

 

I cared and cherished all the times that  I had with you....and all I wanted was you to do the same...What is it that you found to her that you did not on me? I know that I love you more than her...When we were together all my heart desires was to hold your hand and to feel that you feel the same to me 'coz that is the what my heart is longing .

If  you knew that we will never be together for a longer time why did you made me believe that it can....You broke my heart but still this heart pumps because it still feel that your heart still beats... even though your with someone else all I wanted to know is that your happy and leaving me is all worth it for your happiness because I only care for you....

Only you....

"everything is changing"


Ones you were mine. I can hold your hand, hug you and kiss you as long as I desire. We held each others arm just like there is no tomorrow. Every time I open my eyes I see you staring at me, holding my cheeks and kiss me so gently. Oh how I miss so much those days, don't you?

For more than two months of being in love with you I know I could forget you. But there's is always a doubt that i feel deep down when I say those words because I knew that we can never last forever. We met so suddenly, you left me so early. I can never forget those happy memories that even though it tears me up and it hurts just like stabbing me a million times. I wont allow it to just pass by because I want the feeling that you made me felt. 


It was cold and dark night when we talk of about our feelings. I told you that I love you so much and I don't want to get hurt again because I knew when I commit myself to you it is correlated about having pain. You knew i was hurt but then you injured my sentiments as well. Actually, you even worsen it. And forgetting you? Can you honestly believe that I can? I hope, but you can never dictate a heart who loved and hurt by the same person who she wants to be the reason why she still beats for this body to function as it must be. Maybe that is also the reason why I can't forget you because you disturbed the homeostasis of my whole body regulation.


I know everything is change but it takes time. I wish that you are happy with your life without me but assure you no love can ever compare to the love I could give you. This is like facing the yawning abyss of eternity were the only choice is to give you up and all the memories with you to live. I chose to live and leave my past behind and soon my memory box would just discard you.:((

"As I look at you directly in your glitzy eyes...I felt like I'm captivated. Does that enchanting body part of yours produces such delicate fervor?.. If only I could sojourn on your façade forever, i will chose eternally when there will no more instances of loosing you...


i will hold on to you incessantly because you are my adoration, my vivacity, and my exhilaration...From the deepest part of my Amygdala you will always be my forever:)))"


-Migz_shen((longing_for_someone))